student no more

After weeks of immersing myself into this what they say is the "real" world, I have come to realize that I no longer am a student. I'm no longer a child. Everyday, I stumble upon and interact with different people with different job descriptions. And whenever I come home, I ask myself, do i see myself doing this for most of my life?

Sometimes, I ask myself, what if nag law school na lang ako? or what if nag aral na lang ako sa ibang bansa? Too many what ifs that just keep me hanging. I don't know. Maybe I just miss being a college student.

Sometimes, I just wanted to stay at home, watch tv, eat, sleep, watch tv, internet all day.  I see pictures in facebook making me remember the things we used to do in college - back when we were just getting to know our new friends, our blockmates, our orgmates.  Pagtatag ng mga friends sa wall photo na cartoons, pagtambay sa tambayan para tumawa at magkwentuhan, pagpunta sa mall after ng finance class, pag-iinternet at pagchachat habang nagcaclass. 

I miss all of these.  Then I realize, it's over. Only now when it has already been months after graduation.

Nevertheless, I like where I am now. I am with a good company, and I am proud to be part of it. Despite all the challenges I foresee, I am in this to win this. Maybe in four to six years time, I will be a student again. Who knows?